We're Friends

Do you ever feel frustrated that you're not perfect? Well, maybe that's a little extreme. I feel frustrated a lot that I'm not better than I am. I wish I knew more Scripture. Not in my head, and not knowing that it's in the Bible somewhere. I wish I knew it more in my heart. That's where it begins a foundation. That's where it's planted. I wish I were more disciplined. I wish I were more brave to face my weaknesses and be comfortable with them, trusting in the Lord's timing. The good book says that His strength is made more perfect in my weaknesses. Maybe He's not as angry as I sometimes think He is. What if He's joyful in my weakness? That seems to go so far against my natural mind that I really can't even process it well. What if He's still smiling when I have a beer to take the edge off? What if He's still smiling when I'm playing the air drums in the car to Sweet Child O' Mine? What if He's singing along to some of the love songs...singing them to me while I'm singing to whoever can't hear me? What if He loves to see the non-stoic emotions pouring out of me that I would never show if I weren't alone? What if He just can't wait for me to wake up from a night's sleep to spend the day with me? What if He and the Holy Spirit talk about me while I'm sleeping? What if He's excited to hear me actually ask His opinion on something instead of just relying on my own judgment (doing that which is right in my own eyes)? What if He's sad like me when He sees someone hurting from the injustice of life itself? What if He's laughing when He sees me screaming and cheering that Auburn pulled out a game they should've won anyway? What if He is not as much of a jerk as I would be if I were God? What if He's better at loving my children than I am? What if He doesn't panic over my addictions because He knows exactly when He's going to free me from the chains? What if He's already got a "story" forming in my children that would be there even if they had another daddy? What if He's more like my daddy than my mind can fathom? What if my sins have already been sacrificed for, so I don't have to walk in shame as much as I walk in freedom? What if there's nothing left for me to "earn"? What if..what if...that could go on forever, and it'd be fun. The answer is...He is. He is - what an incredible statement. He is more than we can imagine. He is more love than we can grasp. He is more grace than we could ever earn. He is FOR us more than we are comfortable believing. What a friend I have in Jesus.